Status Update

We wanted to thank you all so much for your thoughts, prayers, cards, conversations, and visits over the last month!  We have felt your love and support in so many ways.

Several of you have asked how we are really doing.  Spiritually, emotionally, practically.  Thank you so much for caring enough to ask!  We don’t want to give any false impressions through the internet or through brief interactions, and we really appreciate your concern on our behalf.

As we went through the battery of tests and doctor visits, we each had some rough days and nights, usually after another round of bad news (of which there were several).  There were hopes we were holding on to in our hearts that we had to hand to the Lord, one at a time.  On top of that, there was, of course, the reality that I am pregnant, which has the potential to mess with emotions even in the easiest of circumstances.  My husband’s job has been very demanding this month, giving him a level of physical and emotional exhaustion to deal with as well (as if the crying pregnant lady wasn’t enough!).

In spite of the realities of our frailty, though, God truly has been very, very good to us in providing grace and strength sufficient for each day.  Each time we have been at a doctor’s He has given us calmness and clarity of mind so that we can listen, ask questions, and not walk away confused or terribly overwhelmed.  He has allowed the depth of our sorrow to not last too long each time we have come home with more bad news.  He has surrounded us with loving, praying friends and family who have not ceased to let us know how much they care with actions and words.  He has brought Scripture to mind at just the right time.

Practically, we don’t expect any new news for another several weeks, and we feel like we have adjusted to the current situation and prognosis.  That doesn’t mean that we are never sad or worried, but just that right now there is nothing new to be sadder or more worried about.  We know that there will be more emotionally difficult days in the future, but for right now we are resting in God’s perfect peace.  And isn’t right now enough?

You can specifically pray that, as my husband has a few weeks off this summer, we will be able to spend time deepening our spiritual and emotional oneness as we prepare for whatever September/October brings.  Pray that we will continue to be able to live in the beautiful moments that God gives us right now instead of constantly fearing the future.  

More interestingly, we think we have decided on a name for our little fellow, so later this week we will move the blog to a more accurate address and post the link on Facebook. Stay tuned!